So, at the beginning of the school year, on the third day of our Orientation, we were required to select a CCA that would stick with us throughout the whole year. It was compulsory for all Sec 1s to go through a selection process to identify potential shooters in our midst. All of it sounded exciting at first, with all the loud bangs and the aura of concentration in the range, I thought it was the perfect CCA for me.
Now, I’m starting to reconsider. I don’t hate shooting itself. It’s the environment that I’m uncomfortable with. For example, the coach, Mr Rahim, is a great guy except that he only pays attention to the ones who “often” come to training, like, unusually more than they’re supposed to. The ones who come every day are the ones who are favored and known. Some of them are friendly, true. Like the Captain. I used to think he was unfriendly because I seldom talked to him but after a while (and after Xin Yi’s assurances), I began to see him as more friendlier. However, something that really got me peeved last week was that Mr Rahim forgot my name! He thought I was one of those new Sec 1s who were just brought in. That REALLY pissed me off and I grabbed my bag and left the range. I enjoy shooting, I really do. But it’s the environment that I really can’t stand. For instance, the clayshooting outing. I felt really left out because every one else were seniors (whom I’ve never talked to). I didn’t know Iman was there. If not, I would have sat with her. So there I was, alone, leaving the seat beside me empty that no one took. I took out my Harry Potter book and started reading it – for the fifth time. Also, the official training sessions are like, once or twice a week. I don’t like to come every day because that would obstruct others from having a chance to train.
So now, I’m really torn. Should I quit Shooting Club and maybe join FMU or Library? They’re both interesting. But my dad’s showing me an article about a girl who aced some weird shooting competition.
WHAT SHOULD I DO? ARGH!!
LOL. some of the people there were juniors but I got your point.
This post sounds emo. D: